Beautiful

A call,

You're waiting outside for me

A walk,

In the rain around the cemetary

You talk,

But what were we talking really?

A drive,

And you're still staring at me,

A kiss,

To end the night and leave me happy...

Not perfect, but beautiful.

heaven bend to take my hand

"you're depressed.. listening to Sarah McLachlan..." House M.D.

my fave photo from today's photoshoot. And just a quick recap. it was awkward. Not just for you but for me too. Maybe it wasn't for you but it was for me. It showed in you but didn't show in me. She and she said it's obvious. Why am I denying? Is it because you don't or I don't?.. Just be straight up but take your time too.

for the sake of an update

I just had a shower. I smell fresh! =D

last night was a good, good night

AA after party!! not that I had many photos anyways. I always forget I have a camera with me and for shame my guy friend was more of (and a better) camwhore than me. He ended up taking the photos which I deleted most of them because I just look so blehhhh in them. Actually I look bad in all of the so I just picked the best. Imagine what 4 shots in a row can do. Thank you I take after my dad and sober up pretty quickly which sucked towards the end :(

What rocked the most was Rene's appearance with her friends who got Sya and I in! That girl is absolutely awesome! Cuz if we didn't go to the ball to get an orange tag we weren't able to go in. Advantages of being a photographer in a club ;)

The lights, the atmosphere, the song selection, the DJ was awesome!

Sadly I didn't take photos with Sya or Rene :( but the night was amazing! I was so surprised I knew so many people there! I would've regretted not going seriously. Thanks Syasya for coming with me otherwise I wouldn't know where to go. Thanks Sean for telling me to come, helping me cut the line, keeping me company, and looking after me.

P.S. should've logged out of yr fb account!

procrastinating and because it's the holidays!

Yesterday was just totally awesome I'm still not over it. Met a whole new batch of people who are just totally awesome!! Sadly not many group photos :(

haha these are my personal faves and for Sean's sake I won't upload anymore.

Cassie's the best model ever.

need to take more photosssss

emo again...

I used to think that achievements make me happy. I thought that it is when I am at my happiest. I guess I was right. It is the happiest I can be at the moment. It never lasts long though. I know what will really make me the happiest. Movies don't affect my emotions. I've watched shows with my mother and friends and seen them cry. I found out something about me. I can only cry when I see unrequitted love. Because I know how it is like. One time too many.

Right now I feel like "I've ignored all that's real and true, all I need is you, when night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes." becuase I know I don't derserve... I'm sorry. But was there even anything to begin with. How could this happen yet again. I can't be happy for no one until I myself find happiness. And by happiness I mean true, real, everlasting...

What the started all this? I've been emo all night eversince I watched Tuck Everlasting. I swear it is the most beautiful movie I've ever watched. It's perfect. Set in the early 20th century, where gentlemen existed, where there were woods and white dresses. Where innocence was still in a young girl and boy. I repeat it was beautiful and just so sad. I would've waited for true love. I would've waited becuase I know that's when I'll receive happiness. And isn't happiness what everyone wants most? It jsut comes in different forms.

They jsut don't make good Disney Movies like they used to.

Does true love even exist anymore? If it does, I'll hold it out and wait. Even if it doesn't, "life is to be lived".

I'm sorry...