tagged by my crash test buddy

1. Do you think you're hot?

LOl.. fer sure..





2. Upload a favourite picture of you.


eh? I've got so many i can't decide hmm hmm hmm

THERE!

3. Why do you like this picture?

it's me without makeup and with glasses how natural is that?! lol plus i like the caption i came up with

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?

don't remember.. 2 weeks ago?

5. The last song you listened to.

Crimson Red by Holiday Parade and it's still playing. been 3 hours already i just love them!!!

6. What are you doing right now besides this?

packing my new pencilbox (which still isn't big enough! -.-)

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?

hmm.. Laura?

8. 5 people to tag.

1) Liz

2) Izzie

3) Alana

4) Nicole

5) lil Tiff

9. Who is no.1?

My bestest friendwho likes to cam-whore and writes interesting blogposts and takes the sickest pictures

10. No.3 is having relationship with?

ME!!! d'oh

11. Say something about no.5.

we've the same name and same interests and same skills and we both wanna dominate the world!

12. How about no. 4?

known her since Std.5 and been thru college and now uni together

13. Who is no.2?

lol a BIG COW according to Eric :P and we've the same name

AHAHAHA!!!! I love you myspace!!

Which i have abandoned for sometime and just when i went online... BOOM!!! I've found Andy Horst's blog link!! *jumps* *jumps*

Andy Horst (if you don't know) is like my all time fave drummer from one of my fave bands ever This Providence. I dunno who I've ranted this to before lol was it you Liz? anyways yay yay yay!! and he claims he smiles but his profile pic doesn't show a smile *sob*

but I have seen him smile and heard him laugh and i was just entranced!!! I'm just in love with the sexy losers lol..

CONGRATZ IZZIE!!

Yay! you passed yr driving test!! but then we're going to Melb in around 2 weeks give and take. Driving apa? haha unless yr getting a car in melb then i can provide you a parking spot on condition you drive me around haha.

I WANNA GO CLUBBING!! and... I WANT LADY GAGA'S ALBUM! go youtube and search for the piano version of Poker face. DAMN DAMN CUTE!

things are turning up for me

My parents finally came to a decision, I'm gonna take environments, be an architect, work a year or two, open up a business and enter interior architecture and interior designing as well (kinda the same la) but it's gonna be a damn lot of stress. However, it's what i want so yeahhhh :)

oh and my dad suddenly texted me saying i got offered a Trnity International Scholarship of $4000!! tht's like omg! i can get my DSLR!! haha! and they are like so flattering in their offer, here's what it said:
Please accept my warmest congratulations on achieving your University place and on the offer of a residential place at Trinity in 2009. Trinity College is a community whose primary mission is to help students achieve their full potential at University through the direct support of academic studies, alongside opportunities to explore cultural, sporting, spiritual, and community service activities. The College is a community of scholars who value and promote academic leadership, tolerance, integrity, and all-round excellence in character and conduct. I know that your time here will be richly rewarding and highly enjoyable, and will bring you long-lasting personal and professional rewards. I take pleasure in offering you a Trinity International Scholarship to the value of $4000.

LOL! DSLR for meeeeee...

ok if yr one of those rich people who think "Whatever it's just 4000 bucks, and she's making a big deal out of it." PISS OFF. it's my happiness tht matters here. and also I made my mum happy so i benefit double.

oh oh and my gorgeous, gorgeous Nay finally borke off from her ****ed up bf (ex) Graham. God that guy fucking reminds me of.. well she and I know who we're referring to. CONGRATZ ON BEING SINGLE AND FREE AGAIN NAY MY DEAREST. I LOVE YOU LOADS!! GET YR SEXY ASS TO MELB INSTEAD OF ADELAIDE NEXT TIME! HAHA! MUAX!

she's so pretty i like her smile

lol I was taking the picture so i had to hold the paper heart

I LOVE NAY!

my webcam damn sucky she's so bright! lol

back to black basics

Yeah due to pressure :P I've changed my hair back to black. it's kinda dried up frizzy now but I can fix that later, sigh whatever to make my mum happy and get me back to melbourne lol. just did it an hour ago so no pics yet.

And I was just reminded of v-day and since i'm at home i'd better plan something for my family.. just can't think of much.. =/ since i'm like so restricted and all. except financially at the moment thanks to CNY.

ok i was thinking of buying a rose bush :P cause flowers won't live forever, tht's for my mum but my dad? and then everyone i'll probably make heart-shaped nuggets and cookies i guess but i need to buy the stuff secretly so tht's my biggest problem i guess.. anyone any ideas? or anyone who loves me enough to help me out somehow?

oh and v-day is on a weekend so tht means everyone will be home.. and most likely wake up later.. but tht's not helping! bgah

it's like another start again

so yeah it's a whole new year according to the Chinese calendar and i just changed my blog skin. Joyce would be so proud LOL. yes pink! but i just changed it to match the picture i put up on the title. That was the pic i mentioned in my earlier post where I took a picture of firecracks and snapped a heart shape in one of them. =D so proud of myself. and i shall stick to my resolution that is to keep this blog updated this year and i'll change the title picture whenever i take a picture that is presentable enough to the public. well cause of the sucky connection my CNY blogging is kinda screwed up like i forgotten what happened and when exactly but it's not like anyone else cares anyways right? oh btw you guys know what arrowroot is right? if you don't look it up.

anyways here's a funny convo that happened at my Aunt's place :

Mum: *eating arrowroot chips which taste really good btw* This is not potato right? what's this thing called again?

Uncle: Aerosmith *stares*

Me: It's called arrowroot

Uncle: Oh yeah, Aerosmith is the rock band right?!

He reminds me of me lol and yes to everyone i did try the sauna. lol it was really nice and there was an internal sound system in there so yh ;) uhhh ok i forgotten the sequence of what happened already.. Ivan's fave cousin came over to our hotel and played video games hogging the TV which had terrible reception anyways. oh and the younger ones came the day before that to play at the beach. Seriously having a younger brother makes me feel like a mother already!

anyways I shall now paste random photos and caption them!! for more details on this CNY

random mango my sis and i found

Kim claimed she could feel the mango's pain

shoe came off and she insisted on a pic


fireworks night


does this look familiar to you? :P i hope it's a sign

Ivan and Keisha

i love this picture loadssss

haha the fire my uncle started

(as mentioned in the previous, previous post)

my aunt and the newest addition to the family, Trisha. this one's my fave!

camwhore pics and CNY update

annual family photo lol considering on getting a pro portrait one. Kim sit properly!

yes i wear 3.5 inches now tht makes me almost 5'7! surprisingly i can sprint in them too

I feel like a gothic princess in here

ok la i just love taking emo pics but tht doesn't make me one

BTW MY DRESS IS INDIGO NOT BLACK! Lol i know i said i'll wear colours but one step at a time ok? at least my shoes are white.. oh wait white is a shade not a colour. my photography pics are with Kim becuase my camera battery died. ooh ooh there's one tht i took for the fireworks and it formed a heart shape!! I know i shldn't get all boastful about it before showing the pictures

NEw Years day (yesterday)

this is an update cause yesterday i didn't have time to go online. My uncle fixed a sauna in my grandparents house!! :O and my mum got totally addicted to it that she'd rahter use it than visit her sister.

Nothing out of the usual. Just visit relatives, collect ang pow but my mum being the type that hates receiving doesn't actually allow us to go around collecting them from relative. It's like they have to come to us to give it. =/ first day and i got RM900. only becuase my grandma gave me RM400 and my uncle gave me RM200 :P

oh and I just loved the dress i used! ha ha I know i am such a camwhore and proud of it :P damn... cannot upload pictures.. damn sucky wei.. ah well will upload when i'm back home too some photos

my uncle nearly set the space near my grandma's house on fire. damn funny la. See kids this is why firecrackers are dangerous.

in malacca now on new year's Eve

Ok it was like 2am on a Sunday Morning and I just found out we're going to Malacca in the afternoon. Ok I know I'm blur but really THAT blur??!! I quote Joyce "you suck like shit". LOL. I thought I wouldn't be blogging for days.. O___o tht would just make me lazy to update.

But then my dad fixed up the wireless here so yay! I thought I'd have to pen everything down. Family Reunions are such a joy "rolls eyes" I hope my ipod battery will last me. I stupidly forgotten to bring my charger :(

"they say it's not about looks or status but I can't help weighing them out when I think of that guy. no it's not who most of you might think. it's a different person that only Jon and Liz know about (P.S. yes dear you look very happy shows how genuine yr expression is). Will I be making the same mistake again? Am I just being too picky? What if I miss out? I feel like I've forgotten how to fall in love again or what love feels like. or is it i'm really not interested? then why do I think of him? I'm one damn confused blue chicken!"

Oh my dad got me this really cool pen. It's also a 4gb pendrive and a video camera! I can become a spy now lol. I've a cousin's b'day later. She's turning 9! how precious is that? I took 1 friggin hour to wrap her present but it still looks like crap. I'm sorry Tasha. hope the plushie will make up for the sucky presentation lol. And I wrapped my other cuzzie's (christine) b'day prezzie in advance. Her sense of music is totally opposite of mine so I hope she'll like the present because I don't! haha.. will update more later

omg if any of my friends from melb or even in m'sia see how i'm dressed now they'll go OMG Tiffany? My 3.5 inch wedges make me taller than daddy. oh that and i'm dressed all corporate cause my closed minded relatives will shun me if i wear what i normally do at this age. I've to put my punk style aside for a few days. *breathes in* I can do this!

got a new phone!

It's a Nokia Navigator.. i think tht's the model lol i lazy to check. lol front

back

Cedric and a pic of me mich sue liz and nic at Dreamworld Sunway Pyramid

actually got more stuff to blog about but i think i'll keep tht secret first until I feel like telling lol

pictures for my 2nd last blog

Nicole this shd've been taken vertically and only with the column of toys, Lizzie so cutE!

Me and one of my besties Sue, she's like a natural poser

only 2 of them, cause Nicole hasn't uploaded the others yet. lol I'm not saying it like i'm blaming you ok :)

oh oh and Shakira forgotten the good ship lollipop song!! *sobs* sunshine how could you!

"On the good ship Lollipop,

It's a sweet trip,

To a candy shop,

Where bonbons play,

On the sunny beach of Peppermint Bay.

Lemonade stands everywhere,

Cracker Jack bands fill the air,

And there you are,

Happy landings on a chocolate bar,

Eating sugar bowl,

With a Tootsie Roll,

And a big, fat jelly fruitcake.

If you eat too much...

Oh! Oh!You'll awake,

With a tummy-ache!

On the good ship Lollipop,

It's a sweet trip,

Into bed you'll pop,

And dream away,

On the good ship Lollipop!"

damn I feel diabetic already :P

wooo things are turning up for me!

yay got a call today saying my accomodation is confirmed. I'm going to Trinity College!! *dances* as in the residentials ha ha. and and and... ok no wait i'll keep the other news to myself until I'm in Melbourne again and if i see him. *blushes*

had like the most random conversation with someone today.. like really weird and random from flies to superman and sidekicks and aliens and tickling! wee! I actually had fun talking on msn? how lifeless is tht? hmm hmm nothing much to blog about today but all I can say is at this moment I'm feeling HAPPY!!!!! but yet i don't know what to say? weird...

zzzz... boredddddd..... and my mum's been praising me non stop i feel so on top of the world today yet with nothing to say hey tht rhymes! i rock!

weee finally people!!

ha ha sounds like I've never met any otehr human being in weeks.. oh yeah i haven't LOL! well anyways thanks to Nicole coming over to pick me up and loaning me money (she wanted to belanja me but I won't allow it i'm gonna pay her back in Melb instead) I managed to hang out at Sunway Pyramid with my old friends again some I haven't seen in years but I was so happy we could still chat like normal again!

I don't have any pics. wwaiting for nicole to send them. Today was just awesome and I think Michelle and Zarul are just the cutest couple ever! And Teo was 2 hours late!! and he kept pointing out that Michelle was later. He keeps forgetting he was the one that planned it. I missed you Teo and yr endless crap talk. WDF cows and Ashworf and Cinnabon!

oh yh and we took pics at Dreamworld and Michelle was commenting how noob i was at picture decorating. Well sorry that it was only my 2nd time at Dreamworld and the first time was years ago.. eh no wait it's my 3rd time lol but anyways yh... I stuck them on my laptop. lol.

ok got more stuff to talk about actually but they're kinda private so yh i'll keep the rest to myself all i can say is.. I ATE DAMN LOT OF ICECREAM/ SUGARY STUFFSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRAIG CHOONG WAI HOE!!

This is yr b'day present!! xD

I'm writing this 1 hour in advance lol. just in case something happens at midnight and i can't post it or whatever. I know you'll love it xD

BIG NOISE, he was suppose to be a mafia so he wanted the eyeliner thing.. or was it me tht forced him... eh can't remember

collected his dps. he took this when he was apparently stressed lol usually he hates taking pictures.

ok i don't rememebr when was this but he looks pretty with Ama's headband ha ha she has more pictures of his hairstyles go ask her.


Wai wai, 18 already, yr a man!! *coff* lol new year, new flaming bag ha ha see you in Melb *hope I get in Trinity residentials too* I didn't have any more funny pics of you and I couldn't get Amanda online to give me so sorry la 3 only ha ha. eh i got recordings of you singing savage garden ha ha and rapping!

last night's blog granted

Last night I blogged about how I was suddenly into high heels right.. well... I told my mum and she was so happy she took me shoe shopping today before picking up my brother and sister from school. and yes she was excited. Took me to 3 shoe stores and i bought a pair at each shop. If I had found more that I liked she would have bought them too. She brought like shoe after shoe saying "Tii this is nice/ not bad/ can be worn for etc..." I think she's happy her daughter is finally becoming a "classy girl" as she calls it. I just think it's this whole turning 18 that's maturing me ha ha. But tht doesn't mean I'm gonna turn my back on my Converse shoes. I've a pair on my wishlist haha but fat chance I'm ever gonna get that. But anyways here's the shoes:

the flats that I wanted

the wedges I wanted

the black stilettos that I wanted!!!

P.S. they're all 3.5 inches high. ha ha i'm like 5 feet 7/8 when i wear them! rawr! so that's what it feels like.

Yes I just had to blog about it immediately! Oh and I saw Sherman and Rosalind shopping together just now. Eh are they an item? someone tell me! LOL

stabbed by Liz (ok so i've something to blog about now)

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing. (cuz my BFF liz tagged me duh!
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i study with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessray.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

the victims:
1. lil tiff
2. lishen
3. junyeu
4. Izzie
5. caitlin

nothing else to post so...

well besides my very very long decision making on whether I should take Science or Environments...





I've been thinking of shoes and by shoes i actually mean high heels and stilettoes and wedges. IDK if it's the turning 18 or my mum's constant nagging that's suddenly making me interested in them but i really really want a pair of beige wedges, silver heels and the traditional black stilettos.. =/ LOL I'm becoming a woman!! xD




I esp want these clark ones but damn ex!! they cost as much as my fave black dress! :(

lol wai hoe trying to get me to webcam now. ahhh bad hair la!!

continuation...

Went to the cutest cafe ever for dinner. It was one fo those places where they served food and sold clothes. It was called Fullhouse (suits the name totally) the deco was so wow! Can't rememeber where it was though but really I wanted to steal the deco esp the table's centrepieces. Starry holed lamps!!

I so want this pleaseeeeeeeee....

IDKY but i want this for my room :P

now a room like this kind of girly I wouldn't mind *points to left* Four poster bed!!

can see the bird? cute right? there were a few of these around

yh as usual my mum said no i can't go out. But she likes to make up for it in some other form. She bought me this really really cute black dress! it has the tuille sticking out (just what I've always wanted but she never liked me wearing) it's just gorgeous to me. I shd have taken a pic of it at the shop >.<

oh yh and my mum got an iPhone :O
lol anyways me tired and gonna sleepy sleep now.

being psychic runs in the family??

omg this is so scarily accurate that I just have to blog about it like IMMEDIATELY!! I cannot stress it enough!

ok my mum told me about her dream and it was me and her going to watch this show right and in her dream the guy I like (yes most of you know who) actually asked me to the show but I told him I was going with my mum.

And then when my mum and I arrived at the show I saw him at the other end with his arms around this other girl and when he saw me he quickly put his arms down and according to my mum I was merajuk-ing like crazy I wouldn't talk to him or even look at him adn the dream ended there.

Note, this is my MUM'S dream!! And at the same time (around there) I was downstairs at the computer because I couldn't sleep I was awake until almost 4am cause I was thinking of whether to tell him or not and then I saw one of my friend online (u know who u r) and so i talked about it with my friend and then i brought up that I think he might like someone else (_____________) name to be private and then my friend told me she heard that it was true tht he does like her so I was... well didn't know how to react about it... Then after I went offline I talked to my abang (adam) about it and actually talking it out made me feel a way lot better that I could sleep again.

But the point is! She's right! DAMN FRIGGIN RIGHT!! and it happened the same time when I found out the truth too. lol I think God sent me a sign but for the wrong prayers. I was asking about Science or Environments not this! but then I'm very grateful I found out before it was too late. I could have made a HUGE mistake!

Well anyways speaking of Adam I miss him very very muchly. We only knew each other for a year plus before we became bro n sis because when I first met him my fren liked him and he didn't return the feeling and I sorta thought he was just.. lol you know.. but after getting to know him I realized I couldn't have lived without him! I love you loads Adam!!! thank you for being there for me whenever I need you. I haven't seen you in around 2 years already but our friendship is still strong and I hope forever it'll remain strong! Yr the best abang and one of the best friends ever!! Sad I coudl only find one photo of me and him :( this was the day I left Sri Inai. I'm happy I got to know him before that.

See I put this picture eventhough this was one of my worst hairstyles ever. See see I sayang you ha ha! here's to better love lives :)

cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

yes okay no one does maybe if someone is feeling suicidal at that moment they might, even I might but these past few days i don't know if it's the lack of social life or.. some otehr excuse that I can't think off but I've been feeling like, "Is anyone interested in me?" "Will I ever find the right one?" "Will this person be interested in me?" "Will I ever get married?" "Will it last?" "Will I get divorced and end up a single mum cause i'm too old for anyone?"





okay yeah i'm thinking way down far the line. My mum was commenting that I need to change. "Wear brighter colours/ high heels/ pink nail polish/ less dark makeup/ more decent hair etc."





But if i do that that means it's not me anymore.. I won't feel comfortable with myself. I've tried so many times for her just to please her but I just can't do it. I feel so fake that I don't wanna meet anyone. But she's like "nonsense, what guy would ever want you like that?"





I was about to answer her when she rephrased that, "What decent rich guy would want you?"





Ok yeah so i admit I haven't been in thebest relationships and no none of them were rich but come on what do you love someone for? their personality or their money? I'd pick personality any day! It gets me so frustrated how materialistic my mum is. I mean don't you think my dad would have been hurt by what she's said? and obviously her perception doesn't get me anywhere near happiness either.





She picks my friends. If they can't buy stuff for you she thinks their not worth hanging out with! I'm like WTF!! hello, that's not how you choose yr friends. My friends and I mean my really really close and bestest friends (I hope you know who you are :]) are given that special (long) title because I trust them I've known them for years or for a certain few just one year ;). They love me for me and have helped me out a lot when I needed help. Comforted me and adviced me when necessary. They know my flaws and not only accept that but try to correct me (when I asked them too). They drive all the way to my house eventhough my mum doesn't like them and even though they had to risk getting caught by their parents just to pick me up and hang out at least for one hour why? because they genuinely miss me and i miss her loads loads too!! yes Liz I'm talking to/about you!! ha ha





but seriously living with her though yeah she can give you most of the things you want (depends if she approves or how hard I beg) I think I'd prefer freedom more than these material things. ok no i'm not ungrateful I'm very grateful so grateful that eversince i've gotten my guitar i never asked her to go out well ok i did once but then i didn't in the end cause i decided not to trouble her but i bet she wouldn't have let me gone out anyways.. i feel so... trapped... and controlled. she criticizes everything!! from my hair to my T-shirt and shoes and even down to the books i read!!





bu what hurt me most is thinking maybe she's right i'll never find the right guy if i carry on being.. well me. but then again if i don't i'll be faking it and that won't end up very pretty either..

This is ME, hi I'm Tiffany, please to meet you please don't diss me =]

I can be gentle I can be sweet,

But if you mess with me you're dead meat.

hey omg that rhymed!

officially one month to go

before i fly back to melbourne.. mixed emotions? yes, no, kinda, maybe, not really. xD it's 9.50am. gonna have the phone interview at 10am me nervous? yes, no, kinda, maybe, not really. xD

Well anyways, my mum wants hair dyed back black for CNY (lol black fro CNY... funny) cause the relatives (according to her and I second tht) when they see my hair will flip and start talking bad. But I don't wanna lose my streaks :S plus colouring will further damage my hair which is slowly recovering. So she gave another suggestion.. CHOP THE BLONDE PARTS OFF. O.O! Guess that kinda leaves me with the most obvious decision right? oooh 9.58am ok gonna call them now.. nervous? YES!

ok interview done.. :S hope i did fine.. scratch that i hope i did well. I stammered a lot and i had problems saying tolerable fast :S Peter was nice though :) choong wai hoe of all days you weren't online!! I asked all yr questions for you already.

does yr hormones say what yr heart says?

try to forget about him? cannot also.. i mean can but didn't last long. just one simple word from him makes the feelings rush back inside me, flooding inside of me and spills out through my laughter when he says the smallest funny thing (something wrong with tht sentence).

talking to Liz and Lisa now.. oh and Ivan too and he's teasing me about speculating!! ha ha can't stop smiling. i get so happy talking to him and when he stops I'm a bit.. ugh "stupid Tiff" (Chris: 2008). It's like i'm empty again. i'm not a flooded sinking boat anymore :'(

do you realize? blah, he hardly reads my blog anyways. ok so what i did today. Spose to go to OU today to meet the Albert House people in KL.. but.. no transport and well i guess i cld've walked to the station like jun lin said but kinda far :P so i didn't but you know what? I DAMN FUCKING REGRETTTTTTTT!!!!!!! gah shd have gone shd have gone!!

so what i did? passed my time ACTUALLY reading magazines. normally to me magazines are a waste of trees, money, time and printing and actaully a whole lot of other things; waste of shelf space, waste of chat time, brain cells etc. but yeah i had nothing else to do so i was spose to take these to recylce but instead i started reading my mum's old issues of Vogue and Bazaar. I think my brain melted already..

when Kim came back we went to the playground for me to do some photography and sketching. oh and swings!! then played some guitar. on the way we saw this poor kitty (ok so it's a cat) look the ears are wounded and they're fresh and poor thing was quite thin. and all curled up. You just wanna hug and kiss it but we know the diseases tht could be on this thing.. btu still i felt my heart break a bit when i had no choice but to walk pass it.. poor baby.. oh i just rememebred the picture i saw on jun yeu's blog. at NS some guy wanted to dump the cat in the dustbin. To those of you who know me and my animal-loving self well, you'd know what i would have done to that person right.. :D

okay so i've decided science then medicine.. will i make it? God knows.. and here's another thing tht i was considering to attend but ivan just gave a worse case scenario thing and now i'm thinking twice.. well i kinda was already but this is twice twice so.. *shrugs* Help me!!!!

I'm a button mushroom!!

well it'll be the type of funghi i wanna be because now i've been trapped at home for so long that i don't feel like going out anymore... no zest also.. =/ tomorrow it's suppose to be the albert house greeting. Ah all the random muffins ha ha. but then I've no transport.. well i kinda do now tahnsk to jun lin but then i haven't exactly got a reply from my mum about esok. Now I dunno if i can go.. or if i should go.. which would just be so plain weird since the 3 of us, jun lin, dummy and I planned for it and i was advertising it too..

did another recording and borrowed Kim's shirt for it ha ha but then deleted it in the end for personal reasons >.<

Kim and I went around our area again just to get away from SUMONE's constant nagging. and we went to this abandoned house and:

oh and then one of those rakan cop people (i think tht's the name for them) motorbiked past and then he did a U-turn cause he caught us creeping in. here was the convo (translated in english so joyce can understand):

Mr Cop: you're not scared? (to enter the house)

Me: Nope, why should we be?

Mr Cop: seriously not scared?

Me: Nope just taking pictures.

Mr Cop: You two live around this area?

Me: yeap

Mr Cop: where?

Me: SS*/*

Mr Cop: with yr family?

Me: uh-huh

Mr Cop: get home safe k?

Me: k *smiles and waves until he's gone... and then goes back inside abandoned house*

oh and then took some "emo" pics for fun as you can see i chose a bad time to wear that stupid Sg Day shirt. ha ha.. so anyways... Science or Environments?.. gah

midlife crisis at 18

spNO SCRATCH THAT I'M STILL 17... omg how hard can this be. everyone knows what they want but i don't. And as I've said many times i hate planning waht to do in the next 10 minutes let alone plan my future!!!

and it's either Science or Environments. thses two are like totally different. there's that stupid TH ROAD NOT TAKEN poem again:

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.


I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

And Literature comes back to haunt me =S, nah i love literature actually and i've found a poem i've known since i was 15 to relate to.....

I'm so messed up..

here's the deal.

SCIENCE:

1. after science get into med (kinda risky) if i don't get in med what to become? science teacher ha ha, pharmacist?
2. i'll make my parents fucking happy + proud if i make it
3. but very costly
4. and altogther it'll be the most 10 years i think, i might as well rare cats and become a nun as well
5. but guaranteed a job, it's a tough course after that but it'll most likely be what it's worth
6. i'll get to go UK in the end

ENVIRONMENTS:

1. 5 years only plus archi
2. i'm pretty confident in this subject that i'll do well ha ha kinda cocky talk, learnt it from my dummy
3. not sure about the prospects
4. will be pretty busy with projects and all that i think but can tahan jsut i need to get over my inclination to procrastinate
5. quite competitive i believe
6. it seems an easy course but what is it worth in the end?
7. get to socialize more in a corporate line and i can explore interior designing too and maybe journalism (yay!)

ok tht's just roughly what was on my mind la atm

oh and Juju. congratz! ha ha

what i like about me

Do you think​ you are pregn​ant?​
no. defo

If the year consi​sted of only one seaso​n,​ which​ would​ you choos​e?​
autumn or spring

You have to get a pierc​ing,​ what do you get?
tragus

You have to get a tatto​o,​ where​ and what do you get?
at the pelvis

What are you weari​ng?​
shirt and shorts

Who do you miss?​
my happier self

When is the last time someo​ne of the oppos​ite sex gave you a hug?
cant remember

Plans​ for tomor​row?​
get thru the day

Is anyth​ing wrong​?
​loads

Do you have a good relat​ionsh​ip with your paren​ts?​
which one?

Are your frien​ds talle​r than you?
a few are

What were you doing​ this morni​ng at 5:​30?​
dreaming i found my adam doll. gawd it's haunting me!

What were you doing​ 2 hours​ ago?
hanging curtains as an apology to my mum

Do you like the ocean​?
​yeah sometimes i wanna drown in it

Would​ you rathe​r sleep​ with someo​ne else,​ or alone​?​
uhhhh... alone

How many windo​ws are open on your compu​ter?
​9

Was the first​ perso​n you talke​d to today​ male or femal​e?
​Liz!!! she's heither she's a ninja ha ha ha

Who was the last perso​n you rode in a car with?​
mum

What woke you up this morni​ng?
​bright lights

Do you know anyon​e named​ Matt?
​not personally but there was my ex but Matt was just what i called him

When was the last time you talke​d to a sibli​ng?
​3 secs ago. we were talking about funghi

Do you wear glass​es?​
yeap

Are you curre​ntly jealo​us?​
of a celebrity grr i want their life!

What are you doing​ today​?​
cathching up with my Dunia Baru series on youtube. i love tht show!

What jewel​ery are you curre​ntly weari​ng?​
earrings and those black bands

Could​ you go the rest of your life witho​ut smoki​ng a cigar​ette?
​i dont smoke so yes, let's keep it tht way

Have you ever in any way, been betra​yed by someo​ne you trust​?​
yes

How late did you stay up last night​ and why?
til 2.30am cause i was searching for my adam doll..

Are you picky​ about​ who you give your numbe​r to?
kinda

What do you prefe​r:​ McDon​alds or Burge​r King?
​McD all the way

Would​ you rathe​r go to Greec​e or Hawai​i?​
uhhh.... so hard to decide!!!!

Did you have a good birth​day this year?​
we'll see :)

cannot tahan her!!

yes Liz you know who... and you know why.. and i'll bear in mind what you said :) <3 u loads!!!!

changing hair style again?

well ok this time i was thinking i so a layered side swept fringe let the rest of my hair grow long. blacken the bleached part of my hair and then do messed up streaks and then colour them blue! I just love these scene hairstyles. They're the best! but they totally fry yr hair.

I'm like bored out of my wits here. Every morning my butt is always placed in front of the comp. It's become such a routine that i'm even malas to msn or anything. if it wasn't for my resolution to maintain this blog i probably would have ditched it too. but then again i can't live without internet either.

Anyways nothing special today. My friend and I were just discussin what song i shd cover next. I was thinking of doing a cover of Flyleaf's I'm so sick ha ha scream fest, or maybe something mellow like Secondhand Serenade's Broken. but i'm scared i'll mess that one up.

and i was doing some reasearch agian on what course to take.. it seems science is like really risky. I don't wanna be a friggin science teacher!! But architecture.. god what if i'm not good enough?

oh yes, IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT:

Albert House people, gathering at 1U this thursday at 12 (jun lin wanted 11 at first) -__-"

hope to see you guys tehre and i really mean i hope to see you guys there cause I'm not sure if i can go ha ha ha. Krys! if you wanna come then fly here for lunch then just fly back la. lol. Joycey fly here too!!

Ok atm i'm waiiting for juju to come online so i can ask him how'd it go getting hr number. And TEo I miss SALLY!

oh and Thankies little Tiffie for being the first to subscribe to my youtube! hee <3

it's a love story baby just say yes

will miss you Joycey.. :(

my roomie! well ok ex-roomie but tht doesn't sound so nice.. anyways.. she's going to Sydney.. I wish I could hold her back but ok tht's just selfish. as for me once again i'm gonna start fretting over SCIENCE or ENVIRONMENTS. wai hoe wasn't helpful and well what did i aspect from him anyways ha ha.

oh and i was just showing jon and andy my Walking By cover. hmm didn't say much so guess it was sucky xD oh well there's always room for improvements right? Oh and omg since when does Teo go for dance classes ah ha ha ha!!! and he's hilarious (as always) according to a reliable source ( i think) he entered a levi's store with her and was whining that he only wants levi's jeans but he was IN A FREAKING LEVI'S STORE! omg classic him man i laughed my ass off!! miss that lovable dorky idiot. haha

HEy Joyce I can still call you when yr free to talk you know? i mean vodafone! hello standard charges and now i don't have to waste credit talking to you-know-who-that-bastard-is anymore so why not spend it on the person who had to put up with me, my nonsense and yet look after me when everything crashed down on me. This post goes out to you my dear! MUAX! love you babe! ha ha and yr American accent :)

and Liz you'll love this I'm over him! thanks to my 'daddy' ha ha. no seriously not real daddy la of course but he sure can act like one :) Yay! Tiff is broken of that stupid emotion and can now focus on.. erm... something else! the more i think about it the more i feel it wasn't worth it.

cause yr hot then yr cold yr yes then yr no yr in then yr out yr up then yr down

OMG first time ever in history that Chris didn't criticize me!! ha ha ha I told him to watch my Walking By cover by Holiday Parade (best indie band ever!) and this was what he said:

- snapashottiff.blogspot.com says (9:57 PM):
lol my motivation to llive comes from being able to kick yr ass back in melb
Chris Vinc. says (9:58 PM):
hmmm
my critic is ,...
i think it is quite nice
Chris Vinc. says (9:59 PM):
it is arcostic rite?
- snapashottiff.blogspot.com says (9:59 PM):
lol no seriously la this time i won't hit you
lol yeah semi acoustic
Chris Vinc. says (9:59 PM):
ya
then i cant critic
- snapashottiff.blogspot.com says (9:59 PM):
tht means can plug into an amplifier also
Chris Vinc. says (9:59 PM):
i think it is quite good
- snapashottiff.blogspot.com says (9:59 PM):
omg for once!! must sacve this conversation ha ha
Chris Vinc. says (9:59 PM):
if ur voice is a bit higher and nt so shaky
- snapashottiff.blogspot.com says (9:59 PM):
then print and paste in my scrapbook


thanks kor~ ;) i know you miss me

the days to Uni draw closer

no accomodations and i still shitting don't know what to do. well there's two choices enter environments and become an architect or go for science and work my way to medicine. HELP! ok so i won't exactly take any advice from anyone unless they're experienced. I just felt like saying that out loud and running in circles stressing over it... OMG just realised we're out of green tea~!

oh and my latest addiction besides ice-cream... Mentos sour mix! just can't resist them! and i stumbled across this mentos addict blogger who even orders rare European only mentos flavours online.. =/

ok i've nothing else to blog about ha ha.. hmm oh! I sorta did a cover of Holiday Parade's Walking By just a few hours ago. I just love thet song and Holiday Parade is a fantastic indie band and they're still Indie and they reply fan mail! weeeee~

*waits for camera to charge*

*records*

*uploads to youtube*

*waits... for a super long time...*

*posted*

*link copied and pasted/ embeded*



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vg-xmmBTQpk


Hope I didn't screw it up too bad though.. I know I look like shit -__- hey it's youtube you don't get all dolled up right? I'll do a new one though when I look close to presentable. View it please and comment if you can :) thanks everyone!

missing the little bits of Melbourne

Malaysian pasta

Melb's Sofia's pasta

not to put down malaysia i mean malaysia rocks at stuff that melb doesn't like our local food xD but when it comes to others.. like for example pasta.. ok so tht's not exactly one of the best pictures but it's the only one i have.

went to dentist, my appointment was scheduled at 2 but for some reason... @%#&$%@# I had to wait my turn until 4!! and the nurses cldn't be any gayer. seriously... -.- and first week of school already and got kids skipping school or maybe they're just lepak-ing after school idk but seriously I never realised what an eye sore it was. no i've never skipped school, well class maybe but i was still in school ha ha. But yeah I see them at the CC and I'm like.. "Dang, do they're parents know? they're wasting their time and their parents money." And I swear I saw primary students in a group outside the video game store. What's going on with them?!

oh btw to pass the time Kim snapped some 'emo' pics of me. I was listening to Realized and i found out the more i listen to it the sicker i get of this feeling and maybe in the end it'll finally go away.

And Liz just helped me discover another stupid thing about myself. How dumb can I be seriously?? Jon's laughing at me. thanks loads -_- How many bloody dumb things could I possibly do and not notice it myself!!!! die die die die die die die die die!!!!

My MAN loves the video cam!

My MAN's unglam shot of us! lol i actually said unglam!

IDK what caption to put for this so give me whatever comes into yr head tht's related to this and DON'T say marshmallows! lol cause tht's what I was thinking off.

Well since i'm not going to environments in the end i won't be needing my DSLR and my CASIO will still be my one and only image capturer.. not too bad la just not tht HQ ha ha. omg medicine.. can i do it? Nick tutor me maths!!!! haha