Monday, September 28, 2009

last night was a good, good night

AA after party!! not that I had many photos anyways. I always forget I have a camera with me and for shame my guy friend was more of (and a better) camwhore than me. He ended up taking the photos which I deleted most of them because I just look so blehhhh in them. Actually I look bad in all of the so I just picked the best. Imagine what 4 shots in a row can do. Thank you I take after my dad and sober up pretty quickly which sucked towards the end :(

What rocked the most was Rene's appearance with her friends who got Sya and I in! That girl is absolutely awesome! Cuz if we didn't go to the ball to get an orange tag we weren't able to go in. Advantages of being a photographer in a club ;)
The lights, the atmosphere, the song selection, the DJ was awesome!
Sadly I didn't take photos with Sya or Rene :( but the night was amazing! I was so surprised I knew so many people there! I would've regretted not going seriously. Thanks Syasya for coming with me otherwise I wouldn't know where to go. Thanks Sean for telling me to come, helping me cut the line, keeping me company, and looking after me.
P.S. should've logged out of yr fb account!

Friday, September 25, 2009

procrastinating and because it's the holidays!

Yesterday was just totally awesome I'm still not over it. Met a whole new batch of people who are just totally awesome!! Sadly not many group photos :(

haha these are my personal faves and for Sean's sake I won't upload anymore.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Sunday, September 20, 2009

emo again...

I used to think that achievements make me happy. I thought that it is when I am at my happiest. I guess I was right. It is the happiest I can be at the moment. It never lasts long though. I know what will really make me the happiest. Movies don't affect my emotions. I've watched shows with my mother and friends and seen them cry. I found out something about me. I can only cry when I see unrequitted love. Because I know how it is like. One time too many.

Right now I feel like "I've ignored all that's real and true, all I need is you, when night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes." becuase I know I don't derserve... I'm sorry. But was there even anything to begin with. How could this happen yet again. I can't be happy for no one until I myself find happiness. And by happiness I mean true, real, everlasting...

What the started all this? I've been emo all night eversince I watched Tuck Everlasting. I swear it is the most beautiful movie I've ever watched. It's perfect. Set in the early 20th century, where gentlemen existed, where there were woods and white dresses. Where innocence was still in a young girl and boy. I repeat it was beautiful and just so sad. I would've waited for true love. I would've waited becuase I know that's when I'll receive happiness. And isn't happiness what everyone wants most? It jsut comes in different forms.

They jsut don't make good Disney Movies like they used to.

Does true love even exist anymore? If it does, I'll hold it out and wait. Even if it doesn't, "life is to be lived".

I'm sorry...

Thursday, September 10, 2009

kiss the stars with me

calm and peaceful
I feel warmth enveloping me

I think
I thought again of you
Why won't you go away

We only
Just met so briefly
But you've left an impression on me

I wish
I had let what almost
happened to happen

I can still
Hear your voice
And remember how it's soothed
this aching heart for just a few brief minutes
I'll treasure them

How you
quickly looked back at me
when you said something
you knew would've hurt me

Were you
Being tactful or a flirt
Either way in the end it hurt

Really badly
When I didn't let
what could've happened, not happen

Would it have been different?
Why would it have?

Monday, September 7, 2009

Yes, I am here

No, I don't want to be

Yes, I am single

No, I don't want to be

Yes, I am shy

No, I don't want to be

Yes, I am

No, I am not

Yes, I would love to
sit next to you and watch you smile

No, I will not say that to

Yes, I did love watching that movie

No, I didn't like the ending

Yes, you are still unaware

No, I am not over it

Yes, I still have

No, I won't say

Maybe, someday,
eventually, finally.

when i'm ready

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Father's Day...

is over in Msia but I believe it's kinda soon in Australia. I don't know why we cant all have a standard date.

To my daddy who totally made my day today in his own cute, special way. I lvoe you so much. Thank you for making me feel so much better and bringing me back on my feet. Thank you for the laugh today and for being the bearer of great news with kong kong.

Filial daughter I shall try to be =D <3